Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Blood Bath

As I start to pen down my thoughts, I remember "Black Friday" I saw last friday and news of blasts in Samjhauta Express. Wat an irony, a day when we say "Shukra hai shukrawar hai" and a train called "Samjhauta Express".

First about the movie. Black Friday is a movie which hits you hard on your face, like it or not. It poses a question, why are we like this? Are we really civilized what we claim to be. Even stone age people did not KILL each other. Have we really progressed or we are just prisoners of thought process forced upon us by fanatics. Why there was a need to shred a mosque into pieces to show your faith? Why there was a need to kill innocent people to show your strength? And why there was a need to blast away a city to show your anger? When I look back at my childhood, I realize that you can make a child think the way you want to. I also used to shout Jai Shree Ram when I was hardly 11 years old. Did I really know who Ram was other than what I had seen in Ramayana, the serial. I don't think so. But then why I was like that. I think because I was what I was made to be. But atleast now I have come to terms with reality. No Ram or Raheem or Guru Nanak or Christ teached to kill people for faith, for religion or for any thing. They died telling us that we are all equal and see what has world come to. And still it claims to be a Carya Sevak or Jehadi. Falacy. Why people don't understand that a life has more worth than anything in world. You can get anything & everything back but a life. The movie made a big impression on my mind because it was a movie where for the first time I saw people glued to their seats even when credential had started on screen. But how much we carry home from there. Just few words of appreciation for Director and start looking forward to next good movie.

Now the blasts. This isnt the first time it had happened in so called civilized soiety. I don't know what makes people think that killing men, women, children, dreams, ambitions, sorrows, happiness, relations, society, humanity can make the society the way they want it to be. I really feel numb at times that wether there is any assurance that I would be alive tomorrow or not. Wether I would be able to listen to voices I everyday crave for. Because I just dont know what is going to happen tomorrow. Which car, which scooter, which bike, which train, which plane, which home, which life is gonna blown away into pieces. Life has become so dreadful, so uncertain, so shrewed. Did we dream of such a life. Does anyone dream of such a life. We run, we work, we sweat, we manipulate, we love, we care, we feel, we manage for what, an uncertain life. Isn't nature enough to punish us for our wrong doings. We talk about spirit of city which recovers fast from adversities or shall I say that we have become indifferent unless its us who suffer.

I always believe you need not wait for one big happiness to come along your way to be happy, you can be happy for small small things. You can be happy for a smile on the faces of your dear ones, you can be happy for the first words coming out of a child's mouth, you can be happy for a friend's call, you can be happy for anything and everything. But some people just can't see people happy. And we become puppets in their hands. What we need is not hanging people but killing the mentality which makes them believe that what they are doing is the correct way of doing things.

And as I pen down my thoughts, my heart weeps for every life these blasts take, every smile they wipe out of faces, every dream they shatter, every heart they broke. And I feel broken.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Bedazzled

I don't know why but there seem to be little in my life which is good. I always feel like I have found something but that turns out to be a mirage only.

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