Thursday, September 27, 2007

Friends

Phew, after a long long long time since I last scribbled something.... But these kind of things happen when you think that you are not alone, you have friends to share your happiness with, you have friends to share your sorrows with, you have friends to.... and I too am no different... but what brings me here not lack of friends, but lack of friends whom I thought were my friends... well... difficult to comprehend, may be, because I can't elaborate.... but yes, the fact is that for a person who holds a friend at the highest place in his life, life has never been fair... always the person who reaches the zenith of the ladder, disappoints me the most... don't know why? I don't know either whether this happens with me only or everyone is victim of this, may be my friends too... may be... see, even now i can't find any fault in them... and someone gonna kill me for that... :)

Those who have ever taken the pain to read through my blog, would think that I always write something when I feel low, and talk about how people are so selfish and all... but you know, I never, never think that anyone is selfish.... I always try to find some reason for their behaviour.... but alas, even after all my reasons, all my possiblities, which even they could not think of in their defence, I do one day succumb to reality.... that I mean nothing to those who mean world to me... or may be who meant world to me.....

May be, someday they would, but I don't want that day to come.... I can't keep on forgiving and forgetting... How long would I? How long? I just hope that they never realize what they have done and let live in illusion that they got rid of a bad friend... I am happy, more than happy... atleast that would give me some happiness that I could keep my friends better off even at my loss... god bless...